I’ve been reading Oswald Chambers for the first time this month. Today (2 Kings 2:12) he captured perfectly what I feel in the absence of Good Shepherd and especially of the sweet hour of worship we would share together every Lord’s Day morning.
It is not wrong to depend upon Elijah as long as God gives him to you, but remember the time will come when he will have to go; when he stands no more to you as your guide and leader, because God does not intend he should. You say – “I cannot go on without Elijah.” God says you must.
Jordan is the type of separation where there is no fellowship with anyone else, and where no one can take the responsibility for you. You have to put to the test now what you learned when you were with your Elijah. You have been to Jordan over and over again with Elijah, but now you are up against it alone. It is no use saying you cannot go; this experience has come, and you must go. If you want to know whether God is the God you have faith to believe Him to be, then go through your Jordan alone.
Now this is all really good and stuff but one response comes most quickly to mind: “I don’t wanna.”